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Guess I didn't update for quite a while.
This blog feels a tad empty. Haa.

Life's been all and quite well, or smooth for me this while, except for some lil' bumps and scratches along the way.

-Warning. Long angry paragraphs, Do not read if you're not wasting time.-
Started work last week, quite hard the first day, and experienced alot of things.
And realised that somethings I want to stop, but I can't. Not everything I do myself, concequences will only fall on me. But I would also implicate my colleagues. Tough first day, standing for more than half a day, but overall, enjoyable. Seeing those parents fulfil their kids' whinning and forcing by buying and increasing my sales. Haha. One word; Adorable. Very. :)
I hope I can work at the kids' section, permanently.
I seriously hate those people that tell me to open every single design - of 19-20 designs, then seem really interested, keep trying and asking information and wasting 30 minutes. Then in the end, don't buy.
And I absolutely abhor a super f*ckd up customer that ask me to find a size 6 for her, then I told her we don't have stock of that size anymore, apologize to her and even dug into just arrived clearance stocks to find for her a size 6, but we really don't have anymore, it's also all clearance stock, so, don't have means don't have already. The stock we have at the fair is different from upstairs, I told her already, and the price is also different, apologise to her again.
She like fucking show me her cbye attitude okay, ask me go up 3rd floor and check whether we still got that stock or not, I say it would be different, totally different. She kept insisting. The fair only got Sharifah and me to tend to all the stalls there. Everyone else go eat and others are counting their stock upstairs. You know what she still say? "Customers are always right leh girl, you never hear before meh? I just want you find one Size 6 upstairs like you will die like that."
Nabei, I really want to shout at her "You ownself no legs go upstairs and check is it?! we here no people already you take care of my place, then I go check for you lah! What customers is always right?! Means you tell me go eat shiet then I eat uh? You're human I not meh? Buy one thing $19.90 so cheap you still keep kpkb, I no need your sales ok!" but Sharifah told me to go up and check and she takecare of my place, then I shot her one black face somemore, sorry sweet :( I take my time slowly walk the whole 2nd floor and 3rd floor for 35 mins like that, Haha. Then I go in K.D, kpkb to Winnie then she told me if I shout at customer like that I Sure get complaint then K.D will kana also, my in-charge and Sharifah they all will also kana scold by K.D's in-charge until v.jialat, and Fion will also know, then I sure kana sack. Evan alr use handphone during work got one warning, one more time also kana sack. So. . Sorry Sharifah, keep show you attitude the whole day. Haha, work tgt again ok, luhv. *hugs* And as for the stupid customer? I go downstairs she gone already, Haa! Don't wanna see her shiet face anymore.
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Still into K-pop now. But changed my blog tracks alr.
Tad bored after awhile. Would try to update every once in a while.
Girlfriends, clique, missed you all. Meet ups soon okay, cause been tired these few days, lazing around at home nowadays too. Haha. Seriously need a big shopping spree soon! Get ready the ka-chingggs. :)
Precious, time would make you feel better, I know your pattern, you say put down, let go alr is just your strong front. Don't bluff me alr okay. I know you well enough to see you through. Although I can't be beside you like the past, my handphone will always be on for you 24/7. Anytime. Really want to give you a big big hug now. You're really strong enough, went thrugh so much. This is just a mistake you made. Remember in your head but forget it in your heart. Luhv you.
Sweetheart, saw your blog, stay happy too aite ;)

“Life changes every minute of every day. You lose friends. You gain friends. You realize your friend wasn’t ever really your friend, and that person you used to hate can make a really good friend. You look for love. You find love. You lose love. You realize that all along you’ve been loved. You laugh. You cry. You laugh so hard that you cry. You do this, you do that. You really wish you hadn’t done that. You learn from that and are glad that you did. You have your ups. You have your downs. You see good movies. You see bad movies. You look at others and wish you were them. You then realize who they are and are glad that you’re you. You love life. You hate life. In the end, you just find yourself happy to be living life, no matter what’s thrown at you.”
—

The simple things compiled to one.

It's Jean day!

It happens, without fail.

Eleven Hints for life.

1. It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return.
But what is more painful is to love someone and never
find the courage to let that person know how you feel.

2. A sad thing in life is when you meet someone who
means a lot to you, only to find out in the end that it was
never meant to be and you just have to let go.

3. The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a
porch swing with, never say a word, and then walk away
feeling like it was the best conversation you’ve ever had.

4. It’s true that we don’t know what we’ve got until we lose
it, but it’s also true that we don’t know what we’ve been
missing until it arrives.

5. It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone, an
hour to like someone, and a day to love someone-but it
takes a lifetime to forget someone.

6. Don’t go for looks, they can deceive. Don’t go for wealth,
even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you
smile because it takes only a smile to make a dark day
seem bright.

7. Dream what you want to dream, go where you want to go,
be what you want to be. Because you have only one life and
one chance to do all the things you want to do.

8. Always put yourself in the other’s shoes. If you feel that it
hurts you, it probably hurts the person too.

9. A careless word may kindle strife. A cruel word may wreck
a life. A timely word may level stress. But a loving word may
heal and bless.

10. The happiest of people don’t necessarily have the best
of everything they just make the most of everything that comes
along their way.

11. Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss, ends with
a tear. When you were born, you were crying and everyone
around you was smiling. Live your life so that when you die,
you’re the one smiling and everyone around you is crying."

Even if it happens. .

“I’ve learned lately that you can’t always trust people. Things aren’t going to go as planned. Friends will be lost, and hearts will be broken. The person who you thought you could count on will let you down. But in these situations, the best thing you can do is hope for the best when life has let you down, because from every bad day there’s always a tomorrow. So be optimistic, live for the moments, and treasure them. And never have regrets because at one point it was exactly what you lived for.”
— Unknown

Insecure.

It's been a while since I updated.

And I cannot trust anymore of your lies.
Do you, even care about me like you used to?
I missed you, the you one year ago.

Sooner or later

Finally, everything's died down.

Friendships gradually going back to normal,

life is going on as planned.

But I'm not myself. anymore.

I'm trying to please and make my friends feel happier.

I'm trying to do things within my means to let them remember now.

Until Venus told me on Friday, I've not been really studying.

Although I sit in front of my class, I still doodle and nothing goes into my brain.

I'm seriously sick of studying.

I really want to study, but I get distracted by so many thoughts.

Maybe until now, the extra one year is having a strain on me.

i don't even know what I want. I don't even have a goal anymore. .

I keep thinking how much I'm going to miss you all after one more year.

As we grow older each year, the time we spend together is not certain anymore.

P/S: Grandma's birthday tomorrow, w/o Gonggong this year. It just feels so weird, until now. >':

P/P/S: So many negative thoughts this few days, hell man. >: